Lost

I can't tell if I'm happy. Nothing bad happened. No one did anything to me, but I keep getting these waves of unhappiness that come of as anger. I can't handle my emotions right now and it's really bothersome. This morning I woke up feeling lost. Almost as if someone else was living my life without me. I had a dream last night, but I can't remember what it was. I know it was important because I've felt empty all day. I know that my dream could have even been a vision. Possibly even a message from God? I can feel myself changing day to day, but I'm not sure i like the person I'm becoming. Since starting JFK, I've noticed that I've had to bite my tongue a lot and sometimes even be fake to make friends, but is that who I want I to be? Who am I trying to impress? What am I doing? Why should it matter who I talk to? Honestly as long as I've got my best friend by my side, I'm good. Why am I all of a sudden questioning things that I've so frequently overlooked in the past? This is bothering me

Love, 

My broken internal compass