Only Human

So, I just got off of the phone with my grandmother. We spoke for 2 hours! There were no pauses, and we even caught ourselves talking over each other at moments. That woman, she has so much love inside of her that it just bubbles out and envelops it's victims in big embraces of happiness and joy. I can't help but have a smile on my face when I talk to her. Of course we disagree on some things and she gets on my nerves but she can't help it. She's only human! It just makes me cry sometimes that I love her so much. She makes me happy, and gives me hope. She told me that it's going to okay. And that I have a wonderful life ahead of me because I'm getting rid of all of the bad things right now. She's the one that taught me to give things to God and to not pester him. God knows, he has perfect timing. He may not be there when you want Him, but He always watches out for us. She told me that I don't have to hide my tears, and that what I'm going through right now is all a test that prepares me for the life that's ahead of me. My happy tears are just flowing because I've missed her so. I really wish we could see each other more often, but I needed this. I needed this nice long talk to bring me back to life. To show me that I'm still here, whether I want to be or not. I'm here, but I'm not here to exist. I am here to live. I'm here to be what my grandma is for me for someone else. Even though I get temperamental and hormonal, I only mean the best not realizing that I'm not superman. I can't help everyone(especially those who don't want it). But in the words of RuPaul and maybe some other great person before him..."if you can't love yourself, how the hell are you gonna love someone else!?" After all... We are all only human.